This is What I Like.

This is more like it.

Eaten/Drank&Time
9:30 a.m. - green tea with ginger
3:37 p.m. - 335mL Diet Dr.Pepper
6:00 p.m. - more green tea with ginger
7:30 p.m. - another can of Diet Dr. Pepper
overall about 3 more cups of water

Total Calories: 0!

Excersized
Walked 40 Minutes in heat
Ab workout on the Ab-Doer - beginner and intermediate
200 ab reps of my making
100 lunges

Thinspiration

Too Much

Eaten:
Breakfast sandwich from timmis with an iced capp because it was bought for me before i woke up by my mother that doesn't know i don't eat.
-tea
-a plate of dinner from the food court because i have to illustrate to my friend that im eating (she wanted to go splits)
-twizzlers, diet coke and popcorn at the movies with her.

Total Calories = close to 1000 probably

Excersized:
walked total of an hour and a half in the blistering 34 degrees Celsius

Do I Have To Cut?
I'm not cutting, I don't want to and I'm tired and I'm running on less then three hours of sleep which will probably be repeated again tonight.

Thinspiration

Swim the Calories Away!

July 22, 2011

Eaten
Brownie with ice cream and a piece of chocolate
cherries and french toast
burger and salad and ice cream bc at a friends house
fruit and yogurt


Total Calories: 730 >.>

Excersized
swam for 30 minutes, walked for 30


Did I have to cut?
not today. it was restricted.

Drank?
green tea (4 cups)
1 bottle of water




Thinspiration:



..yeah i went a little thispo-crazy.
Good news? Next week I'm not going to be watched for eating AT ALL, so i can eat as little as i please :3
I've made plans for the first few days of an apple a day (which supposedly keeps the doctor away) and splitting it into quarters, having one quarter every few hours. MAKES SENSE, no? :$


^^my life, right there.

Covergirl Quality.

July 21

Eaten:
20 calories of marble cheese
3 more pickles (half size)
2 pieces low fat ham
Binge on chips, cereal, ice cream and rice

Total calories: 5+20 = 25
Total calories in 62.5 hours? 25+64= 89


at my dad's gf's house - four pieces of pizza, timbits, ice cream and diet pepsi. STUPID BINGE. ruined everything. Only purged the equivalent to one piece of pizza.

Excersize
2 hours swimming (i must have done 50 lengths)
100 ab reps
50 squats

Did I have to cut?
twice.
That's two strikes in F.


thinspiration:


Selena Gomez




Why can't I just be a covergirl and be done?

And Noone Notices...again.

July 20, 2011 (Wednesday)

Eaten
Nothing,
Drank like 2L of diet dr.pepper though... very proud for resisting popcorn and Malteasers
Drank Green tea

Total cal: 0

Excersized
possibly doing 100 reps tonight (Abs) but I highly doubt it.
Walked 25 minutes in the blistering heat while sweating like a pig.

At least 100 calories burned

Total calories for the day: -100


Thinspiration:
Olivia Wilde




Natalie Portman








I know that this may be unhealthy But I will be skinny. I will be like those girls in the pictures, no matter what. I don't care who notices or who tries to stop me.Although the people that matter don't seem to notice.
Sometimes what I would like is for someone to say "have you lost weight?" and I'd be like, "yes I have! thank you for noticing!" (in my head it would be more like, Yes! thank goodness the hours of starvation paid off!!)

I have to buy my own groceries for next week, so I'm making a shopping list. Let's see how I can pull this off...

I will be skinny.

July 19, 2011

Eaten
nothing until 6pm
had to eat - ate 1/2 cup of broccoli and cauliflower and 4 pickles and 1/4 of a bagel

Total: 14+20+30 = 64

Excersize
300 ab excersizes.
played catch with brother for 45 minutes

Checklist Before I Sleep
at least 200 strength training reps
3 mugs green tea
6 cups water


thinspiration:
Mila Kunis








is she a beaut or what? Holy crow.


I wish this day would just go by faster so I could sleep. But I know that I can't sleep if I'm hungry - which I am. I prefer it this way better then being full. I only feel like I'm pretty when I'm hungry.
It's gotten to the point where I'm only eating because I've denied food from the same person three times at three points of my day since I woke up this morning. Never a good position to be put in. Tomorrow I can evade eating whatsoever, and I will hold onto that fast for as long as I possibly can.
I. WILL. BE. SKINNY.

THINSPO DRESS. Yesssssssssss.

July 18, 2011 (Monday)

Eaten
a few bites of bro's unfinished lunch >.>
a piece of pizza
two chicken wings
sunflower seeds
popcorn
starbucks

Yeah, totaled more then 500 >.>
sigh.

Excersized
Bused everywhere - sweat like crazy! Super warm ALL day - loss calories from that
walked about 3 hours total through the day - fast paced (close to 300 calories burned)

++++I plan on doing situps until I'm satisfied tonight - that'll burn some I hope...

GRAND total of the day - around 500+ with deductions...

NOT OKAY. The rest of the week is HARDCORE.


thinspiration:





so i had a smart thought...

I BOUGHT THIS really cute dress that I've always wanted, 

in an XS :$

and I intend to fit into it before summer's over - that's 15 more pounds to   loose...

Plus...

the dress was sorta thirty bucks :$

like this, but it's navy blue with flowers...adorable? i think so. (: 

Now I need to fit into it so I can strut my stuff with a jean jacket overtop this fall. 

I wish you didn't know about me, because you're worried. Noone's okay when they're worried. I'm worried about you worrying. This week has been shitty for me - I ate like a normal person and I've been beating myself up for it. Theres so many things I could have just said no to, but I didn't , and I don't know why.

Fasting is my new goal of the week. Once I'm done at my dad's house there'll be no pressure to eat for the next week at my mom's.

The best part is, my mom wouldn't notice if I lost a few pounds while at my Dad's...