(out for breakfast...)
french toast, hash browns, eggs and apples
(came home)
kept eating...
spoonful of nutella, 10 chips, coffee, 1/2cup corn&carrots
total calories: close to 600-700 i think .
Excersized:
three hours walking, -1,158
Thinspiration
I could have done so much better. I'm a screw up, and I'm never good enough for anything.
August doesn't deserve to be my bitch, anyone deserves better then me.
Ana does too.
You're gonna hate me for this so I am really sorry first of all. I might be wrong too- bear in mind I don't know you and what I'm saying is only out of concern- not bitchiness. It sounds like you're quite young- from PT I think you're in your teens? Sorry if I'm wrong.
ReplyDeleteYou remind me slightly of myself 18 months ago. In a way it seems like you're not in as deep as you could be- you reference wanting to try things you haven't yet, and I just wanted to say be careful. I have spent so much time in denial of what I'm doing to myself- and even now I only occasionally can see. You won't believe me here but whatever you weigh- you'll want to lose more. UGW's mean nothing.
Not "ana"- its not a person- its a disease. It's deadly, its a life ruiner, and it honestly truly gets you nowhere. I know how amazing it feels to lose another pound. But its not worth it.
You might not be able to un-do what you've gotten used to already- not alone anyway, but honestly don't add anything else in.
This comment won't help you I know- I just hope it doesn't make things worse. Take care and remember there are people who care.xxx
thank you for your comment. Trust me when I say that I've looked on this from every angle...and I hate it.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I can't take your comment more to heart, you're only trying to help after all, but I'm not in the best place...
With all due respect, the kindest way possible, ...if you aren't in support of me doing what I'm doing then please don't say anything to me that will make me second-guess anything I'm doing. I'm up to my neck in protective people - about many things other then this.
thank you for your comment anyways. xx.
That's fine- but I will say- no-one who's worth knowing will "support" you in attempting to kill yourself.
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