Work My Ass Off

11:59 p.m. update

sushi (purged)
drank coffee,
2 smokes
cheerios and almonds, walnuts and raisins
1/3 cup lowfat yogurt
walked in a mall for 4 hrs,
40 mintues walking
subway - healthy sub with veggies


calories so far: close to +700 probably
calories burned so far: did 1 rep, -1000 calories
























It's not that I'm broken
or hurting,
or in pain,
It's that I'm invisible.




2:23a.m.
THIS. IS. BULLSHIT.
WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING GET IT THE FUCK RIGHT?
i'm not strong enough
pretty enough or god enough
for anyone or anything.
I can't stick to a fast,
I can't starve
I'm not in pain from hunger, God knows how much I want to be.